Baby still isn’t here. This part, the waiting, is really hard.
I didn’t write the words above–they were on a card I received, but they are helping me stay sane today.
C’mon Baby. We’re ready to meet you.
The images above are from my art show last month. Thanks again to everyone who came out!
Though my due date is still a few weeks away, Baby #2 could make his debut any time over the next several weeks.
We have been very busy getting ready. Washing tiny clothes. Setting up the new nursery (pics to come soon!). Talking with my daughter about being a big sister and trying to help her understand (I don’t even think we really understand) what’s going to happen.
Her world is about to be rocked–I am open to suggestions on how to soften the blow.
My belly is HUGE. A thing of wonder, it defies gravity. Some women love to be pregnant. I am not one of them and I am almost to the point where cutting this baby out of my belly with a butter knife myself sounds like a rational idea.
Professionally, I am winding down. I have one last project that I am trying to wrap up (I hope to show details soon!). Organizing and streamlining so that I can put things on hold for the next few months. I don’t know how much posting I will be able to do. Forgive me if I drop off the face of the planet–know that I will be back when I can.
Being a mom is the most important job that I have. We are so excited to meet the newest member of our family. Stay tuned…he could be here any day.
Over the past several days, I have been thinking a lot about fear. It’s purpose. It’s function.
How do you deal with fear?
When I was in my twenties, I loved watching the show ‘So You Think You Can Dance’ (ok, I still love watching ‘So You Think You Can Dance’ when I actually get the chance). The level of talent–what those dancers can do with their bodies–is unbelievable.
But more than anything, I was impressed by the courage it takes to go after your dream, especially in a public forum like national TV. The idea of putting yourself out there and potentially failing in front of so many people was mind boggling to me. At the time I was living in a ski town, working in the hospitality industry in a job that I excelled at, but didn’t love. I was having fun, but I wasn’t pushing myself. It was comfortable. Safe.
I wanted more.
So my husband-to-be and I moved to Seattle, and I went back to school for graphic design. That first day of school, I was terrified. I remember sitting in my car, in this hip new city that I knew nothing about, with sweaty palms, giving myself a pep talk about putting one foot in front of the other and making it into the classroom.
Design and art, like dance, are creative endeavors–and the product of your labor is put out in the world for all to see. And judge.
It was daunting, yes. But there was this small voice, pushing me. Telling me that I’d always regret it if I didn’t get out there and try.
And do you know what happened? I LOVED design school. I LOVE illustration. These days, I put myself out there for the world to see, and judge, all the time.
It isn’t easy. I still give myself pep talks on a regular basis. But I also feel like I am really living my life.
What I have learned about fear:
1. Never let fear stop you from trying something. Listen to it. Honor it. Hear what it has to say–but don’t let it hold you back.
2. Failing isn’t really failing. Every time I have lost or “failed” at something, I have learned far more than when I was successful. Then I pick myself up, dust myself off, and get back in the saddle.
3. What other people think of you is none of your business. People are going to judge what you do. Do it anyway.
4. Listen and trust your instincts. Stay mindful, so that you can hear that little voice urging you on. It’s telling you where you need to go, what you need to do next. Heed your own wisdom, even (especially?) if it scares you.
When I’m 85, I don’t want to regret anything because I didn’t have the guts to try. Do you?
Deep into the darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.
-Edgar Allan Poe, “The Raven”
Over the weekend, my family and I carved the pumpkins pictured above. Some though, elevate this custom to a whole new level of Jack O Lantern art.
And my personal fave…
Aren’t they amazing!?!
This week, I have my nose to the grindstone with a tight deadline for a fun packaging project…so I’m going to try to keep this one this short.
First, a huge THANK YOU to everyone who came out for my Art Shows! “Re-Imagination,” which has been up for two months, comes down this weekend. It was a lot of fun–and it meant so much to me to have such a strong showing of support.
You are awesome!
Even if you didn’t make it to my show–I still hold you in the very highest regard. You (yes you) are awesome, just for beinging you.
I have also been working on wall art for Baby A –who will be here in a matter of weeks!! We are doing a bike theme in the new nursery, and one of the walls will be adorned with the above illustration. I may still tweak it here and there but it’s just about finished.
What do you think?
The images above were created by hand-letterer extraordinaire, Mary Kate McDevitt
I keep telling myself that I need to start backing off and slowing down, to make space in our world for this bundle of joy growing in my ever-expanding belly.
But I’m having trouble.
Yesterday, I started an online class (through Skillshare.com) taught by the awesomely talented Mary Kate McDevitt on hand drawn type. I LOVE the art of typography, and want to hone and refine my own hand drawn lettering skills.
I also met with some potential clients this week about working on a packaging project for a new product they are bringing to market (last night, I had trouble sleeping because my head was buzzing with ideas for their label–which would be so much fun to work on).
This isn’t slowing down. If anything, it’s trying to cram as much as I can before baby A arrives.
The thing is, I love what I do. And that makes me a better mama.
When I’m with my daughter, my goal is to be with her, 100%. Stopping–sometimes laying on the sidewalk–to watch caterpillars and roly polys when we are out on a walk. Or painting with her at the kitchen table.
Having my own creative outlet fills my well of patience. It feeds my soul. It balances me out.
Some parents stay home with their kids. Others work full time. I am lucky enough fall somewhere in the middle and it feels like the best of both worlds. For this, I am incredibly grateful.
What do you do that makes you a better mom or dad for your kids? I’d love to hear from you.
Color is one of my very favorite things. And this time of year doesn’t disappoint.
My daughter goes to daycare two mornings a week and weather permitting, I usually ride my bike, pulling her in her trailer to “school.” This morning on my way home, I had to pull over and take the picture above. The leaves looked like they were lit from within, and with Boulder’s famed Flatirons in the background…Wow.
I celebrated a birthday this week. 36 years old. It was pretty low key as birthdays go (especially when I think back to my early 20s), but for this year, it was just right.
I (usually) enjoy the introspection that birthdays bring. Thoughts on where I am. And where do I want to be inevitably weave their way into my everyday routine.
The year ahead will be very full with a new baby. Part of me is, quite honestly, terrified. I know how much work new babies are. And between the sleep deprivation and a whirling dervish two-year-old to keep up with, I have no idea how we are all going to keep our heads on straight. Don’t get me wrong, I couldn’t be more excited to be adding a fourth to our little family. But I have to keep reminding myself to stop and take deep breaths, that it’s all going to be fine. That people have been doing this for thousands and thousands of years.
The best thing I got for my birthday this year was a new bedroom.
My very talented, hard-working husband has put in some serious overtime in the past week to convert my loft office/studio into a new nursery.
When I was pregnant with my daughter, I had so much fun decorating her bedroom:
This time around, we are doing a bike theme. I have been playing with color palettes, and wall decor ideas and I’m getting close. As it all comes together, I will post pics so stay tuned.
AND… if you are going to be out and about in Denver this Saturday, I’m having an art show!
Artists’ Reception: Backstage Coffee Art Gallery at the Denver Performing Arts Complex on Saturday, October 12, 2013 | 7:30-11:00 pm.
Hors d’oeuvres will be served and the bar will be open so come on down!
Artwork above created by Zoe Ingram
Ambushed by a vicious cold at 8 months pregnant, plus the responsibility of running after my two-year-old whirling dervish has left me wiped out this week. She is the light of my life, but sometimes–very rarely, but sometimes, I wish she had an off button.
So today, I will shine the spotlight on someone else…
Congratulations Zoe Ingram, the winner of Lilla’s Global Talent Search!!! Zoe was a fellow classmate in Make Art That Sells, Lilla Roger’s class that I took over the summer, and I am a huge fan of her work. What an unbelievable opportunity– I can’t wait to see where her career goes from here.
In other news, mark your calendars…
I am having an Artist Reception!
Come out and support me on Saturday, October 12th from 7:30-11:00 pm. My very big belly and I would love to see you! Hors d’oeuvres will be served and the bar will be open.
Artists’ Reception: Backstage Coffee Art Gallery at the Denver Performing Arts Complex on Saturday, October 12, 2013 | 7:30-11:00 pm.
Entitled Re-Imagine Nation, and featuring (from the press release) “… delightfully rendered illustrative artworks by Benjamin Wright Coleman, Kelly Angelovic, Mike Geiger and John D. Schultz, poetry recited by Hannah Haddadi and Haven Grey, and live music performed by Austin Trotter, Re-Imagine Nation melds the kindred spirits of visual art, music and the written word.”
The show runs through October 26th.
Recently, I was featured in Work Life 3: the Uppercase directory of illustration. When the call for submissions came, I figured that, other than some potential ego bruising, I had nothing to lose.
And, what if….they said yes?
My feet didn’t touch the ground for days.
Based on their work and an interview for the publication, each selected artist received a different assignment for their featured illustration. Here are a few of my favorites:
“Take your comment, “illustration is my never-ending playground” as the starting point for your illustration. Show yourself keeping busy and having fun in the creative environment.” – assigned to Cecilie Ellefsen
“Using images and handlettering, illuminate your statement: “I’m still explaining what I do for a living.” -assigned to Katy Dockrill
” Envision your own folklore or fairy tale and make a self-portrait in which elements of you (ie your hair, limbs, clothes, and/or body) depict the story.” -assigned to Katie Skau
And my assignment, based on my answer to the question How and why did you become an illustrator or an artist?:
“Draw a portrait illustrating this: “I get this buzz…an electric current of excitement that lights me up from head to toe. I am an illustrator because it makes my soul sparkle.”
I knew I wanted to show my character in the air, with pure joy exploding from her head. So I started with some rough pencil sketches.
From here, I moved onto the computer and created several digital sketches. I often work in grayscale while I am figuring out the composition of an illustration because I get too sidetracked by the power of color.
This is still very rough, but my “character” is beginning to take shape. I wanted to convey enthusiasm, joy, and the process of ideas incubating and hatching.
Drawing in my sketchpad or sitting in front of my laptop, I am usually working alone. This can be incredibly isolating. For this piece especially, I needed some feedback so I showed my sketches to a few trusted souls, including Janine. We decided that I needed to flesh the idea out a bit more, add more of “me” and my process as an illustrator.
As a side note, while creating this piece I found out I was pregnant with my second child. This was incredibly exciting but, as those of you familiar with the first trimester of pregnancy know, this is also when you are most likely to be sick. I will spare you the gory details, but for 3-4 months after I finished this illustration, it made me feel sick to even look at it because I felt so terrible while putting it together. Now in the third trimester my nausea has, for the most part, abated. And I can reflect on this project without feeling like I am going to lose my lunch.
Incorporating the aforementioned art direction, I turned the eggs into light bulbs, and added my laptop, a sketchpad, and my collection of paintbrushes, pens and pencils. I also started to play with color–which is often my favorite step.
I came up with two different color palettes. Looking at them now, I am still torn between which one I like better, though I chose the option on the left.
The final step was to take the whole thing into Photoshop to add texture and shading.
True to the design aesthetic we have all come to expect from Uppercase, this publication is clearly a labor of love. The level of talent is both impressive and inspiring– and I am truly humbled to have been included.
An unfinished sneak peak of a larger illustration I am working on this week.
We are soggy, but (I think) we are finally starting to dry. Last week, the skies spilled more rain than we typically see in a year.
Somehow, my house (despite being 200 feet away from a creek that swelled to fifty times its original size) didn’t flood. I feel blessed and grateful beyond words.
Most people that I know in town were not so lucky.
The devastation is heartbreaking. We have a long way to go before things return to normal. If you want to help:
Before the deluge, I had a lot going on. This all seems like ancient history (and rather trivial given recent events), but I want to keep you updated.
The results were tallied for the final round of Lilla Rogers Global Talent Search. Unfortunately, I didn’t make the cut.
For all of you who voted, I can’t say thank you enough! The outpouring of support from friends, family, and people I don’t even know was overwhelming.
Though disappointed, making it to the semi-finals was an unbelievable experience. I learned so much personally and professionally–and I earned some prime-time exposure.
It is all just as it should be.
The talented six who did make it to the final round, deserved to. I personally voted for three of the bags that made it into this next round and I can’t wait to see what happens next. If you’re interested, the big winner will be revealed on Lilla’s blog on October 3rd. Good luck finalists!
My art opening was also a complete success. Thank you to everyone who came out. And if you didn’t make it, you have another chance! The show runs through October 26th, and there will be another reception next month:Artists’ Reception: Backstage Coffee Art Gallery at the Denver Performing Arts Complex on Saturday, October 12, 2013 | 7:30-11:00 pm. Come out and support me. I would love to see you!
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